Where Did It Go?

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I do not know about you, but this year is moving. We are almost in June, and I find myself standing at the edge of the first half of the year wondering quietly where it all went.

There is something about time moving fast that forces a choice: move with it mindlessly, or stop and take stock. This week, I chose the latter.

I recently did what I call a DOOM session — a proper clear-out of the digital clutter that quietly accumulates when life keeps moving: the calendar, the inbox, the folders on my laptop I kept meaning to sort. As tedious as it was, it felt necessary. You sift through what worked, what did not, and what still needs refining. And somewhere in that sifting, you find yourself asking: where did it go?

But here is what surprised me. The question did not carry anxiety this time. It carried something quieter. A kind of wonder.

Looking back, not only have I just marked our anniversary together, but this past year has also been one of new beginnings for me. New surroundings. A new pace. A new way of moving through my days.

Before, it was a mindless routine. Now, it is a mindful one.

That shift did not happen all at once. It happened slowly, the way most things that matter do. And slowing down did something unexpected — it made me notice the people around me.

There is a saying that neighbours are better than distant relatives. I have come to understand that differently now. My neighbours are not simply those who live beside me. They are the friends I have found here, people who have quietly become my community in a place that was once unfamiliar.

Being far from family and friends carries its own kind of weight. You hold it in ways you do not always name. And there was a period this year when that weight felt heavier than usual. A loved one I care deeply for was preparing for a major operation. I was far from home, and the worry sat with me constantly. There were days when I felt the full weight of all of it, quite deeply.

And then, in the middle of that season, something small happened.

A few friends from my new community reached out. Not with grand gestures or perfectly chosen words. Simply with three: "Are you okay?"

I remember breaking down. Not because things were falling apart, but because I felt seen. They could not be physically present, but they showed up anyway — with their time, their quiet company, so that I was not sitting alone with all of it. That kind of care is not something you forget.

My loved one is okay now. And I exhale writing that.

But I do not take lightly what it took to get here, and I do not take lightly who stood beside me in those harder moments. Gratitude, for me this week, looks like that. Not the big things. Three words. People who stayed.

Gratitude Fridays exists for exactly this reason — to make me pause, notice, and reflect on how I have actually been living. Not to perform positivity, but to quietly recognise what was already enough, even when the week was not remarkable.

As we stand on the edge of the second half of the year, I find myself less interested in racing forward and more interested in carrying this with me: the slower pace, the mindful days, and the people who remind me that belonging is not about geography. It is about who shows up.